Friday, February 16, 2018

36.

Jumaat.

Hari yang penuh barakah.
Alhamdulillah buat pertama kalinya merasai suasana solat jumaat di bumi anbiya'.

SubhanAllah cantiknya aturan Allah.
Ketika aku ingin menyambung tilawahku, surah Kahfi menjadi tatapan seterusnya buatku.
Sungguh, tepat sekali pada masanya sepertimana Allah ingin mengkhabarkan sesuatu.
Pada waktu aku ingin menziarahi Raudhah pula, surah Al-Anbiya yang menjadi tatapanku.
Miracles. 😊

Hilang.
Ya, tiba tiba ada sesuatu yang berlaku pada malam itu.
Dan Allah lebih mengetahui.

Thursday, February 15, 2018

35.

Day 2.
Bersaudara.

Dan kerana muslim itu bersaudara.
Hati terpegun melihat kemurnian yang Allah himpunkan di sini.
Betapa ramai umat pelbagai paras rupa, warna kulit dan bahasa komunikasi.
Tetapi begitu harmoni mengagungkan Allah yang Maha Esa.

Rezeki aku pula hari ini.
Ditemukan dengan sahabat yang dikenali semasa Trip Jejak Nusantara Indonesia.
Allahu, begitu kecil dunia walau dalam keadaan jutaan himpunan di bumi Madinah ini.

Seterusnya, dipertemukan dengan seorang makcik dari Algeria.
Begitu ramah dirinya dan sangat protective terhadap aku. Sis terharuuu! 😭
Pertemuan ini begitu singkat yakni antara Maghrib dan Isyak, tetapi banyak yang aku pelajari daripadanya.
Ilal Liqa' Maas Salamah. ☺️

Sunday, February 11, 2018

34.

Day 1.

I just can't believe it.

Tanah yang sedang aku jejak.
Udara yang sedang aku hirup.
Keindahan yang sedap aku tatap.

Semuanya ibarat sebuah mimpi.

*Tepuk muka*
Haha. Ini realiti Farhana 😊
Alhamdulillah 😍

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

33.

"Lagu mana yang paling best?"

"Ade laaa. 😌"

"Haha mana boleh rahsia rahsia. Cepat, lagu mana paling best."

"Ade 3 lagu yang paling aku suka."

"Aipppp mana boleh 3. Yang paling yang paling haaa."

"Kalau yang paling, lagu bintang la."

"Amboi lagu yang jiwang jiwang je diaaa."

"Haha. You know me well." ❤️
.

Dua dua jenis tak move on.
Sama macam inside out dulu.
😊😊😊

Friday, January 26, 2018

31.

I'm glad I have her to rationalise my mind.
I'm emotionally broken and I never know what I actually said and think.

Glad that I don't respond anything yesterday.
I might do things that can worsen the relationship.

For now I try to not do what I've ever do.
Everyone need a space somehow.

Yes, let people having a normal life.
Let the love spreads again.

You'll never own them.
Allah owns everything.

Forgive me ya rabb ❤️

30.

I have to do lots of things that I've been thinking all this while.
To figure out what I want in my life and of course to be a better version of me.
Battling with yourself ain't that easy tho, it took a lot of time and efforts.
But the most important thing that I learnt is to never ever give up on myself.

It doesn't matter how people will react to you since you have no control over it.
They can judge you, they can assume you, they can have their own expectations on you.
But only you can control your mind and feelings on how you respond towards them.
Again, it took a lot of practice, since sometimes you have to do what you don't like just for the purpose of to make things better.

Never put the blame on people.
Shaytan will have a role on this.
So, blame shaytan who makes you sad and grief.

Yes, I'm okay with it.
It's not a big deal.
I have a lot of things to focus on.
I never make a small small things worsen my day.
It's not worth it.

May Allah forgive me and you and everyone of us if we have exceed the limit and do things that he don't like.
He is the only one I need to return to since He is the one who takes control of everything.
Forgive me ya rabb 😢

Sunday, January 21, 2018

29.

I love him.

The way he makes me feel safe.
The way he took care about me.
The way he patiently listen for all my rantings.
The way he comforts me that life is not a big deal.

I love her.

The way she cares about me.
The way she makes her time for me.
The way she appreciating everything in her life.
The way she inspires me whenever life took her a battle.

Dear God,

Please keep them safe whenever I'm not around anymore.
Please keep them strong whenever I can't hold their hands.
Please keep them guided whenever things get rough.

Dear God,

Please make it easy for me.
I'm coming home ☺️

Thursday, November 16, 2017

28.

I have lost my words.

I can't describe my feelings accurately.

How I wish I could be more sincere to myself.

Please.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

27.

Kulim.

Masihku ingat lagi saat kau ingin mengkhabarkan berita gembira itu kepadaku. Ketika lunch di Kenny Rogers, sementara kita menunggu makanan yang dipesan sampai. :)

Alhamdulillah! Macam macam perasaan menerjah jiwaku pabila mendengar berita itu. Tak tahu nak rasa apa. Tergamam. Terharu. Terkesima. Semua ada! Well. At the bright side, akhirnya, setelah 4 bulan lebih 'goyang kaki' di rumah, kau terus dapat kerja. Alhamdulillah. :) Tapi jauh di sudut hatiku, tak tahu kenapa aku sedih sesangat sebenarnya. Bermulalah otakku mengeluarkan soalan-soalan yang pelik. Kenapa mesti jauh? :'( Kenapa mesti di Kulim nun di sana? :'( Hmm. Siapalah aku untuk melawan takdir, ku akur kan sahaja ke mana hala tujunya selepas ini. InshaAllah pasti ada hikmahnya kenapa Allah hantar kau kerja kat tempat yang jauh sikit. Sepertimana hatiku berat ingin melepaskan kau pergi, seperti itu jugalah aku mengharapkan agar hari-hari kita berlalu perlahan, satu per satu. Kerana aku tak sanggup, terpisah lagi denganmu.

14/11/2016.

Exactly setahun yang lepas. Tibalah saatnya untuk merelakan pemergianmu. Bermulalah episod episod makan tak kenyang, mandi tak basah dan tidur tak lena. Haha. Ok gurau je. >.< Takpelah. Positif je masa tu. Macam tak biasa pulak duduk jauh macam masa kau kat yues dulu. Mungkin lain sikit sebab aku tahu kau pun tak rela duduk jauh kat Kulim tu. Dengan takde family, takde kawan yang best macam aku :p, takde kucing, takde internet, takde makanan. Huhu. Tapi masa tu kita follow the flow je. Kalau dah memang rezekinya kat situ, inshaAllah Allah permudahkan. Kalau tak, pindah jelah sini kan. :D

10/2/2017.

Almost 3 bulan kau duduk sana and at last keputusan telah dibuat. Kau kata cukuplah 3 bulan sahaja kau berbakti di Silterra. Masa memula kau bagitahu aku kau nak resign kat situ, fikiran aku tetiba bercabang. 50/50. Pada mulanya, aku rasa tak patut pula kau berhenti sebab bukan senang kau nak cari kerja lain. Dan masa tu memang fikir takyah lah pindah sebab kau dah start mengumpul dana untuk kahwin. Huhu. Tapi bila difikirkan balik apa yang kau cakap, tak guna juga kahwin kalau duduk jauh jauh macam ni. Haaaa. Terus aku setuju dengan statement tu. Masa tu memang struggle. Terpaksa jadi orang tengah antara kau dengan mak kau. Nak convince mak punya pasal. Alhamdulillah at the end, mak kau pun faham. :) Taktau nak describe betapa happy nya aku masa tu bila kau nak balik sini dan tak perlu nak balik Kulim dah naik bas lagi. :p

Long story short, tak lama lepas kau dah balik sini, kau dapat kerja kat KFM pula. Walaupun terpaksa travel jauh dari Shah Alam ke KLCC almost 1jam lebih dan kekadang kau terpaksa balik lewat malam, kau kata kau enjoy kerja kat sini. Alhamdulillah. I'm the happiest girl on earth jugak sebab boleh jumpa kau anytime bila free lepas kerja. Takdelah rasa lifeless sangat asyik dok ofis buat kerja, at least I can spend my time with my beloved one. :)

Many things I've learnt from what we going through so far. To always put trust in Allah in everything we do. To always support each other and figure it out anything that matter to us. To do the best thing especially for the one we love. To always appreciate all the little things between us. And of course, to eat as much as we can. :DD

Thank you for everything that you've sacrifice for me all this while. Will be missing you always <3